It seems that i only come back to this little corner of my universe when i really need to let something out ( Read more... )

GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING CHRIST ALMIGHTY... FUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!! fuck... FUCK!

It's the standard thing, right? Treat people the way you wish to be treated? Do unto others as you would have done unto you ( Read more... )

I can't believe how ridiculous this is! I can't believe that I'm actually a party to this. I thought better of myself, and I thought better of all of you.

I think i found a singular happy place this evening. Sitting in my basement, reading a book I recently was given, listening to Miles Davis and drinking a glass of wine. Everything that reminds me of failure has been packed into a form fitting case or taped into a box. Nothing except the simple feeling of wanting a cigarette put a notch in me. ( Read more... )

Who's the sucker that lives for a good day once in a while. The stupid fuck that works behind a desk, hates his life and plays squash with his boss because he wants to get "in good". Sometimes, but then again, he made his bed, he'll sleep in it ( Read more... )

Where did my passion go? Where did the inspiration go?

I tried playing every guitar I own this evening and they all sounded wrong. What has destroyed this for me?

Maybe it's time I just moved on.

I'm so tired. I work too hard. I'm treated like shit. Blah blah blah. No wants to hear me bitch this.

Anyway, I got a new guitar off ebay today. Small joys in my life, coming home and playing my guitars. That's about it.

shit...

four months away, with nothing to do but lose myself in what work needs to be done, my guitar and the snow. Could there be a better idea... I really hope not. Cross my fingers and hope.