So you want to hear about my life? No, no you don't. No one really does, cause on one really gives a fuck. As I sit her, I wonder how I've made it through this life in the way I did. I've spent so much of my life trying to impress in ways which I don't even need to, yet, I stand before you, unable to give anything else ( Read more... )

So I sit awake and ponder ( Read more... )

You wanna know what sucks? I've got a lot going for me in my life right now.. I know that. I know I'm special. I know I'm a good person. I know that I've been given more in life than most people have. I know that the things I want to achieve are greater than what most people even dream of, and you know what kills me? My own damn self. I spend ( Read more... )

...that's what you are ( Read more... )

I haven't been wanting to come back and read my last post, mainly because I feel like I would feel bad about what I said. In truth, I do. I was angry. I'm at a point in my life where anger, something that never came about within me, has pushed it's ugly head up through my neck into my brain and pokes out every now and then in different forms ( Read more... )

with no one to talk to ( Read more... )

since my last entry. this isn't good. alcohol don't fail me now. but please. wait, no. stop. you need to use self strength to keep yourself together pat. you have it in you, because it was you all along. this wonderful girl you just met only gave you the insight, not the knowledge. let her guide you to the things that you know you can do. but let ( Read more... )

This is weird. I'm stuck in the middle of life, a life I should be enjoying to the fullest, yet something is holding me back. I don't know why, but I can't let go. i guess that is what love is all about. You don't ever reach a point where you stop loving someone. Once it starts, you're hooked. Atleast I was. I can truly say, I've only been in ( Read more... )

I'm really happy for you... It kind of hurt when I first read about it. Not knowing that it happened, but not being able to smile when you told me about it over the phone, or over aim.. I miss having you in my life, because you really mean a lot to me. but I hope that whoever he is, that he makes you happy. I hope he makes you so happy that you ( Read more... )

Well.. I find myself bored right now, trying to find a friend (literally, not myspacically) and i wound up here, with nothing more than my thoughts. Funny how that works. I guess i do bring this upon myself some times. I'm very self destructive by just not being busy enough. You'd think I could wait a day, for this job to start and for life to ( Read more... )