a while back, i got a poke from avenir ( Read more... )

1. My username is ____ because ____ ( Read more... )

nobody reads this anymore, so it's safe to post here

it hurts
everyhting
all the time
and al the indifference is what cuts the most
i try not to thikn about the worst that could happen
because i don't try
i succeed
i dotn know what to say
i dont know where i went
i didnt know that i went
but i cant find you anymore
and you aren't looking

dammit
jsut when things were going well
i felt comfortabel talking
it wasnt weird for you to smile anymore
i didnt feel like my presence annoyed you
then i go and fuck it all up

i hope i'm overreacting
but i genuinely am sorry

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tonight we played team trivia at delaney's ( Read more... )

i've been figuring things out
people talking to each other has helped on some fronts
on one, it is causing a rift
but i think once peopel calm down, things will calm down
i hope they dont all lose each other though
and i hope i dont lose them
but if they leave, they are beyond my control
but i hope they know i'll miss them

but things will be ok

Mary Sue

Your score was 69 in Unbelievability!

You are your author's Mary Sue, and if a fiction writer wrote about a character like you, they would be doing something very wrong.

You're unreal. There's something about you which words cannot describe ( Read more... )

to you ( Read more... )

after telling mom about how i was annoyed with things, she convinced me to talk to the girl i like, and let her know
i didnt quite ask her out, but i did let her know i was really interested
i probably could've gone about things better
but it didnt
oh well
i lose