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Sometimes I wish just one person read this shit.
P.s
Kimber is " taking a leave. from work.. I decided today. But I still have a job just so you know why ill be home. Just need to collect some thoights and let some drama disolve at work so I can hopefully concentrate again soon"
If I remember right. She doesn't have any paid time off left. Maybe it ( Read more... ) -
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In a fit of job dissatisfaction I agreed to go in and work the overnight shift at 511. This is after working at tix.com for 8 hours and knowing I have to be there tomorrow morning also. I'm a moron. I was going to sleep for 4 hours before I have to go but my fucking dogs keep barking at everything.
I've also fucked up at least two peoples spring ( Read more... ) -
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I am clearly certifiable. Today is rest day at tix.com. I'm sure I'll pass but all yesterday and this morning I've been thinking about throwing the test. Thinking if they fire me I'll maybe be eligible for unemployment again. Then I can maybe do some kind of approved training course. Then I can stop struggling. I don't know if I'm just tired of ( Read more... ) -
And again
The plan. Focus on just the one thing. Yes, i drink too much. Yes, exercise would help my cause. Yes, I am a lazy slob. Yes, i'm depressed and anti-social. But more than all those things, and possibly the root of some of them, I am insanely fat. So insanely fat that if I ever manage my original goal of losing 100 pounds I will still be really fat, ( Read more... ) -
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I should know better than to visit my mom. Pizza, popcorn, candy, cheese burger & fries..... Christ.
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Good things
Hw: 319
Lw: 170
Cw: 312
Down: 6.2
I've lost 6.2 pounds. I've been sticking pretty close to the shake plan today and yesterday. Before that not so much. But apparently I didn't screw up too bad. Unless this is just water weight lost in the last 2 days. Which is possible. But I'll take it.
I got a big pay check. Bigger than expected. Paid my house payment ( Read more... ) -
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Going to see alkaline trio tonight. Was tempted not to go after the photo incident yesterday. It's happened before. Where I feel to ugly to go outside. But this is alkaline trio and I've loved them too long to not go.
I'm on again. Swear I'm not fucking up this time. I work a lot the next few weeks. Have split days off. So It shouldn't be a problem ( Read more... ) -
photos.
i avoid cameras like the plague. but every now and again i manage to get in the way of one. i just saw a picture of myself 20 pounds lighter no less. i'm sudenly very tempted to purge the baked potato i just ate. i'ts hard to believe that i ever feel ok going outside. it's hrd to believe that i ever think that i look ok. i honestly don't know why i ( Read more... ) -
Take two
Nothing like puking walnuts in the bathroom at work to get you back on the wagon.
Yesterday was bad. Real bad.
