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this has really been going on for way too long
i have had the same fitday account since i knew it existed. i just went back to the beginning. 4/2/02 since then i have gained 106 pounds. over there last 8 years i have gone up and down and up and up and down and up and up. i can't do this any more. i really fucking can't. i've put off to much. i'm 31 fucking years old. i blame a lot of it on ( Read more... ) -
Four things
Four things that I want for myself.
1. A home
2. Love (ie. A man)
3. A career
4. A baby (optional)
One down three to go. The way I figure I need to successfully complete operation health and fitness in order to get number two and thus number four. I realize that I might be able to find a man who like fat chicks with low self esteem. But I don't think I ( Read more... ) -
I think
That maybe part of the reason I fuck up little things and occasionally big things ( that so far have gone un noticed) is that I have such a varied and fucked up schedule that I can't get any kind of routine. I know most of the things I forget. But it's different from shift to shift and position to position. And when you're only at work 3 days a ( Read more... ) -
No, seriously
Operation health and fitness day one begins tomorrow.
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Fuck yeah
I got a raise and a back pay check. I am now making $ 18.28 an hour. Now if only I could get full time and a regular shift I'd be set. I could maybe do the school thing again. I could sleep like a normal person. Life would be pretty freakin' great. In comparison any way.
Saturday I didn't get to sleep until around 11:20pm I then woke up at 2am and ( Read more... ) -
Damn
My uncle was in a very minor motorcycle accident a few weeks ago. Pretty much he just fell over in a dirt parking lot. He's a great big fat man and a hard core alcoholic. So in the accident he broke his collar bone and a couple of ribs, which punctured a lung. All just from falling over. Anyway while in the hospital he got to having pretty bad dt's ( Read more... ) -
It stops now
I can't keep doing this to myself. Today, I quit drinking.
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as it happens
i'm really fucking paranoid. and i really am not fond of having a room mate... too late now i think. -
Less stressed
Somehow I got paid $ 1,172. sweeeeet. And the roomie paid me her $200 today. Soooo I think all is going to be well. That's December mortgage.
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Stress
I have about $20 in my bank account. My mortgage is paid up to December. But I still have other bills. I think I'll be paid at least $400 hopefully $500 tomorrow. And my new room mate will be giving me $200. That leave $500 more needed just to pay mortgage for december. To say nothing of the $700-$800. I need for November and December bills. I'd ( Read more... )