I hate me

[cadusa]

In the last three months three of my friendships have been ruined.

I feel like a complete and total failure over each one, let alone three.

The first one was completely my fault.  I don't think there is anything I can do to atone for what I said, and that is the worst part.  I am still haunted by silly little embarrassments from my childhood,

Comments

[raldage]

No sympathy, just the knowledge that you are not really an idiot. We all do things without thinking and that, my friend, is what makes us. We upset people, make stupid mistakes and a myriad of other horrible things...that's the way that it is.

You're not a bad guy. Chin up...you'll make it work.

-P$

[rev_hp_meyers]

I'm still your friend. And we're all idiots in our own rights...well except me...referring to myself as an idiot would compromise the validity of my award winning speech.

Anyway I believe most friendships come and go, but the truest and more important friendship withstand the test of time and even the most severe conflicts and misunderstandings.

[spacecoyotevega]

Well, I like you. And I can damn well ruin my own day, thank you so very much. Feh.

I had something to say about the virtues of losing a friend due to honest interaction as opposed to just avoiding them until they leave, but it's most likely bullshit. I don't know enough to say. I have however seriously weighed the merits of making a new friend against those of committing seppuku. Can't answer that one either, though, as I didn't have a wakasashi on me at the time.

I stay away from everyone. It sucks. I don't quite remember how you got me to talk to you, but you did, and I'm glad. And, that's all.

[caretaker444]

You have yet to ruin my day... As a matter of fact I still get a periodic chuckle when I remember driving you to the ER in IC late one night. And don't worry to much about "losing" friendships, because if they are that important to you then you'll work to get them "back."

[lockwoodmgm]

As always I remain out of the loop but I miss you anyway and hope you figure it all out.
Mad love.
Shiney