The need for loss.
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I haven't done anything RIGHT lately. I'm screwing things up. Is this leading into a grand tragic exit? I'm losing. I'm losing my control. I just have to keep in mind that I need not to be selfish at this time. I have to face both the present and past, and lose them at the same time. I could have picked one, or both. But I need to be fair. For me to see one full worth of something, I need to lose it first. I need to be harsh on myself right now.
I can't believe that my mind's messed up with these thoughts right now. Good timing! Post-birthday plus thesis deadline. I need to tame myself as soon as possible; or else I might lose everything that I have.