So my therapist who was off sick, sent me a letter last week to say he was definitely back this week and sorry for being off. Then I get a phonecall today to say he's now left for good, but could I come in to see the asessment blokie. So now it turns out, I'll have to go back on the waiting list to see someone, and its gonna be a minimum 8 week ( Read more... )

I'm feeling like absolute crap, mentally and physically, and want nothing more but to go back to bed. I cannot afford to do so though, no sick pay means I have to go to work after having 2 days off at the start of the week. The only reason I didn't go in then was becaue I was throwing up so much. Today, I'm just exhusted, and it hurts to breathe. I ( Read more... )

I don't want any more fucking drugs

The deal is, you type the answer to each question into a Google image search, and you pick an image from the first page of results.

1. Age at next birthday:


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I don't know why I even write here still no one ever seems to read it except Laura. Perhaps I should email her instead of boring everyone.

This is long, has number triggers, and just generally, don't bother.

Ok, so I confess. I've been restricting this last week. I don't even know why. Well, I have reasons, but I don't know really, not really. I ( Read more... )

Tell me this fight
Was just a cause
That we will die
With these flaws
I know it’s meaningless
But that is what I have to face

As long as that’s true
I can get over you

Tell me you used me to climb
Above us poor souls (standing) in line
For me a lot of pain
Is what I need to pull me through

Wanna feel this hatred
It’s what I need to drag me through this
I ( Read more... )

I never realised before how wonderful it is to have someone hold you when you are crying. Someone who cares and understands and wants to take that time to help you. Lie next to you with their arms around you ( Read more... )

Do you ever get the sense like you need to do something but you don't know what? It's like stumbling to find a word, it's on the tip of your tongue.. you have a sense of the word, it's meaning but it's still so far away. Sometimes it hits you a flash, other times it haunts you. I feel haunting by things I havent done, could of done, would have done ( Read more... )

So, it appears my flatmate has taken the scales, locked them in her car, and flown to Germany with the keys. I'm half impressed. I half want to kill her ( Read more... )

This is actually a survey nicked from people blogs on Last.fm. Anyway, Last.fm is a nifty website that has software that tracks what you listen to, and puts it into statistics for you, and other things. http://www.last.fm/user/Caelijo/ is my profile if anyone wants to check out my varied music taste in more detail.

Top Ten Survey

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