I have begun the trip to the mountains and am currently in a motel room in Dumas Texas...we started yesterday...I tried to find the place where John died and couldn't...I have a friend who will FedEx a GPS unit to me and I will visit it on the way home...it really sucked not to be able to find it ( Read more... )

Well...today has been tough...my first Father's Day without my buddy...I've had to pretend to be upbeat for Lilith (my youngest) but it's been hard, hope I've done a good job...we went to Harlingen to visit my wifes family, it just sucks watching all the children play, knowing one is missing...on the way home I was troubled with the desire to call ( Read more... )

Well....I'm the proud owner of a new tat...got it last night at Flaming Heart from Creep (same guy who did John's), after 2 1/2 hours of work, the left side of my chest now carries an eternal connection to my son....I'm not sure why but I have felt better today than at any time since this whole tragedy unfolded...I also bought a fifth of Stoli and ( Read more... )

Finally found the card with Johns tattoo on it...gonna be heading out to Flaming Heart to get it done soon...it means a lot to carry his tat with me...don't know if it will help with how I feel, but it will give me something to look at every day and think of my boy...we were the same....now we'll have the same ink.

I feel lost, empty inside, as if I have lost my way in the world as well as the desire to go on...I am worried that I may be falling into a deep depression...this is something that has never happened to me...I have always been an upbeat caring and outgoing person, lately...no...I have stopped laughing or talking to people unless I have to...my wife ( Read more... )

Well where to begin, My only son is dead...I still have trouble even thinking the words let alone speaking them. He was the best friend I've ever had, he was me and I was him, we were the same and we both knew it ( Read more... )