There are so many things I'd like to say but I don't even know how to express in words how incredibly fed up I am with life in general. Nothing's going right.. nothing. I've been pulling back on all of my relationships and isolating myself. There's one person that always makes me feel better about my life and everything but now it's like they don't ( Read more... )

i can't do this anymore

Alright I'm at Carlee's right now but anyway.. yeah yesterday was a bad day. It started out alright.. I went to Tiki with Carlee and Sammi and I felt fine but once I got to school in PE I felt a panic attack coming so I was like oh great just what I need. So in Spanish it started but I just sat through the class because I needed to watch the movie ( Read more... )

I hate this so much.. I thought I was done I thought all this shit was behind me but then it's gotta come back and all I want is to be me again. I guess I've been depressed all along but when it gets like this I can't handle it but it makes me sick to think about how long it's been since I've been myself. It makes me even sicker to think about how ( Read more... )

Wow today sucked soo unbelievably bad. The morning was fine until I got called into security... twice. Then I cried the last half of lunch and all of periods 5,6, and 7. Then after that I had to work at 4 and I looked like hell cause I'd been crying so much and I really didn't want to be there. But it was alright I guess... took things off of my ( Read more... )

Okay last Thursday... let me think.. oh yeah I sat around for a while then I was going to do something with Molly but she took too long to get ready lol so then Mickey came into town and we went to Oglesby for a while then to DJ's then we picked up Kyle and went to the bowling alley to get Molly then we went to Kyle's for a while then went home I ( Read more... )

Spring Breakk. So I donno when I last wrote so I'll start with Friday... Mickey came over I guess then we went to the mall and came back to my house and then he spent the night then that morning I went to Apple Barrel with Carlee and Jim then Kelly and Molly came to see us. Later on Mickey came over and I don't remember what we did.. but later we ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish there was something that i could do to prove the way i feel about you. i mean, i shouldn't have to prove anything, but when you don't think you're the first one that comes to my mind when it comes to planning for the weekend, it makes me think. it hurts. i don't know what else to say except that i love you and i'd rather be with ( Read more... )

Saturday night Carlee picked me up and we went to her house and a little while later we walked to Jim's and Matos was there and we just sat around for a while and we did some things blah blah blah "ya wanna dip?" lmfao. Oh yeah and you can't forget the guacamole. hahaha. Later on we went back to Carlee's and watched people play poker and stuff ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was going to get up at 6 and get ready and go to Tiki but I didn't fall asleep until 3 so I didn't get up until 6:45 when my mom woke me up so I got ready as fast as I could and met Carlee and Sammi there.. then school and Mr. Aubry went ballistic on me cause I'm a smartass or something. whatever. Then at like 5 I picked up Bianca and ( Read more... )