I doubt you will read this, but I am honest when I say I truly miss you. I am going crazy right now knowing that you have read everything I have written and have nothing to say back to me. Why won't you reply? Why won't you call? Do you not care at all? Have you decided to never talk to me again? And if you have, just tell me. Tell me you have no ( Read more... )

Let's start off with how much I hate him. I think he's a complete jerk, an asshole, a douche bag, and everything in between. If I could choose for him to live somewhere else I would immediately choose yes. He upsets so many people on our floor it's embarassing to count. He pries and tries to get as much information as he can to do who knows what ( Read more... )

I wasn't asking you to say fuck everyone and be free, I really just wanted a friend...I'm confused about how you got this whole free and fuck everyone idea from being friends. I mean yeah, you said you didn't want to deny your feelings and surpress them, but not like this. I'm just confused like something went over my head.

I don't think you realize that the things you say do hurt. Saying that you would prefer to not fall asleep on the phone with me because it's too hard for you to get used to and you usually hang up on me anyway or just put the phone somewhere else doesn't make things better for you. And then you think you're making it better by saying that you didn' ( Read more... )

Soooo, Scott and I talked last night, he thought that we could try talking as civilized people so we could have an honest chance to see where we stand. Anyway, I'm not sure it's going to go anywhere. More of an update later...

Oh by the way, new livejournal look. Let me know what you think.

Okay. This obviously needs to be said.
First of all:That last post was not written for you. As much as you would like to believe that it was written for you and that I am denying some sort of feeling for you, it is not true. I forgot to friends-lock it. As far as making a new screen name and talking to you, I don't think you understand that I was ( Read more... )

Way to fuck things up once again Caitlin. You find someone who's actually good to you and you fuck it up with your stupidity...wow. I am incredibly disgusted with myself, I told you many times that you would be better off without me, you shouldn't deal with me when i'm like this. I have a crush on you...

Is it okay to develop feelings for someone you know things will never work out with? Is it okay to develop a crush on someone when you realize that all you ever will be is phone friends? Maybe it's comforting to know that things will never go further than being on the phone with you, but in the meantime it's hard to keep back old feelings. I don't ( Read more... )

Sigh, deep breaths. I told my mom everything about Scott, and when I say everything I mean everything. He called just now and she told him not to call anymore, he told her that I was bothering him. Gah, its all over though. Ask me for details.

You know what? Fuck Scott. I don't love him anymore, I'm not lying to myself, not even just a little bit. If he wants to chat friendly at some point or another, fine, but there will be no long conversations, falling asleep on the phone, or anything beyond talking...not even if I'm desperate, or lonely, or really really horny. There just won't be ( Read more... )