Well, i went and saw the performance of CATS that my parents got me tickets for last night. And it was actually really awesome. I mean it is kinda creepy when they stare at you the way they did but other than that it was great. It was done by Penn State's Center for the Performing arts ( Read more... )

So, i unwillingly went to shane's wake. It wasn't as bad as i thought and i'm actually glad i went. I feel like such a cunt for not wanting to go, and kind of using the fact that i didn't care about shane and he didn't care about me as an exscuse. My real exscuse is that i just hate shit like this. But wake's are better than funeral's when you ( Read more... )

i got my permit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woooooooooooh!

so i'm going for my permit tommorow.

i should really take another look at the manual.

it was a good day.

So my mom went out shopping and every friggin member of her family has called the house looking for her, for chrissake i understand that my grandfathers mother is dead!

I don't like watching him cry. It's heartbreaking. I don't need everyone reminding me, that shes gone. I know she is. I felt it the instant she was gone.

i know, i'm not the only ( Read more... )

i'm sorry about my last entry.

i just needed reassurance, i'm having a bad lifetime.

i dreamt about death twice today.

then my great grandmother died...

I wouldn't try so hard if i wasn't constantly shit on by people. I wouldn't try so hard if people actually asked me to hang out with them outside school. I wouldn't try so hard if people would just be honest with me instead of  making me think i'm their friend.   I WOULDN'T FUCKING TRY SO HARD IF SOMEONE WOULD JUST SHOW ME UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FOR ( Read more... )

let's add humor to this journal.

So the other day my grandparents came over and my grandpa picks this coaster off the coffee table.

"Wow, that's nice.  We should get some."

then my mom babbles on about where she got it and whatnot.

Grandpa: so, cait how's school.
Me: it's fine.
Grandma: ::picking up a coaster:: Look at these, Sonny!  Isn't that cute? ( Read more... )

So opening night was pretty sweet. There were a few glitches here and there but aside from that i guess it ran well. i was kinda bored though since i don't go on like...AT ALL on my off nights. But i just hung out with peeps backstage ( Read more... )