OK I DID IT
im soo drunk
actually will probably be embarassed in morning so should stop now

grumpy. excited to go out. sad that my favorite dealer is leaving. hate to admit it. but. this sort of reminds me that im at the age where everyone leaves. also, unrelated: feel like going suicidal on a bottle of wine. really excellent, burlap wrapped, red, wine. so yeah.
im out.

oh, my, god, the snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! beautiful beautiful, im glad to be home ( Read more... )

the thing with this all is that im over it ( Read more... )

the truth is

i have only a few reasons to feel okay
im really lost, actually
the truth is, i dont know what to do with myself
and it gets really hard, you know, living like its alright, as if.
i still care, thats the problem
its all or none when it comes to feeling

yeah that was hot, last week
and last night
something is going on

happy new year ( Read more... )

i have my second bottle of dye on my head. im in very, very much pain.
its rather unbearable actually. i have until 7:25.
after the first bottle i blowdried my hair. it was a sort of honey color. honey is a nice way of saying that it was brassy, and orangish.

its the best thing ( Read more... )

i/ we and us cried all day, until we/i/me, you got drunk. its so weird how okay i feel now, in a really bad, uneasy, cheap kind of way.
was given the reefer madness dvd for christmas. its sweet.

come on out, come on over help me forget