you know what, i hate the holidays. ferreal, do you know how hard it is to find a nickel on christmas eve? besides that, though
oh well, you know how it goes, at least at least at least, and thank goodness for all that.

journal[update]

12/21 11:54PM
Creep, co me to be dro o m N o wthis whole day has been about sunsets/whatever except for the part that involved the actuality of the situation, the reality, our syracuse sky, being devoid of color. john mayer was singing how i should have seen that sunrise. on the simpsons, there was a sunset. (principal skinners' ( Read more... )

holy jesus, holy rock and roll
reptilian monster captors:
we say
let our reefer go!

if i am so very unstupid. why does it need to be affirmed so constantly?
so you were wondering what we did today, i bet.
giants of fun, we played and played
we did have funand even captured a bit of it
tee hee

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i love the lingo, even though its not my world and i have to tell myself it never will be. diesel boy.
have to stop, i need to be positive. why is it so fucking hard for me to feel like a normal person? or how i assume they all feel. life is just so much different than you would think, or know, until youre living it and it hits you, and you have ( Read more... )

did i mention, i would kill you for a cigarette right now, i am going to cry, my head hurts. and work?
i did mention all those things, maybe. but i didnt say how much i m------fuck

oh, my god i feel like shit. last night was super fun though. almost time for work. dangg
i need like 6 more hours of sleep than i had to function normally, i think.

to do
get rid of everything
save money
leave.

i subbed today. man. after working at the bead store, where the challenge factor is like, negative, it was like i actually accomplished something. and i was freaking tired and bitchy after. for awhile. also because i had to walk home and i kept thinking about like 2003 and maybe 2002 and the winter and that feeling, i had it again. but, i took care ( Read more... )

the snow is sparkly! like motherfucking diamonds. wandered around all day in the snow. or rather, strolled. trudged ( Read more... )