Just 3 months until I am done with school. It's not really that exciting. I'm mostly just in a panic. I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't know where I'll work or how I'll pay rent if I don't get a job right away or whether I want to be a grown up. But I also don't want to be in school anymore. I don't want to do anymore math homework or ( Read more... )

Yesterday my pastor talked about being obedient to your life purpose and how purpose is not something you choose and such and all I could think was that I have no idea what my purpose is. All I know is I can't imagine living the adventureless life I've been doing for the last forever long and I miss doing things that matter and I feel like I am so ( Read more... )

oh what a fun weekend. Cat and I drove to Dallas to visit Rachel and go to Warped tour. It was SO much fun. I miss having all of us together. I'd forgotten (well, not really forgotten, but at least stopped missing I guess) how fun we all are together. I'm sure everyone thinks their friends are fun and everything, but really, I'm fairly convinced ( Read more... )

so I ran my first marathon yesterday. I didn't walk, and I finished and I know I should probably be proud of myself for finishing since I didn't really train all that well for it, but I am not. I am so disappointed with my time. I ran 10:30 miles and more than just what my time was, I didn't feel good after like 10 miles. I never feel that way ( Read more... )

So funny that I am just realizing how much, in site of feeling life my life is undefined and so wide open, I realize it's wide open and undefined as long as it stays in my lines and fits my definitions and anything that doesn't I don't look at or consider and I can't accept because I've never really let myself realize that life is not tidy and neat ( Read more... )

Live journals prompt: Favorite and least favorite words... haha.
Faves:
dawdle
fuzzy
wriggle
omnivorous
calamity

Yuck Words:
gaping
groan
glimmer
potential
brood

That's all I've got for now.

Apparently I've already titled a lj entry the way I am.. so this has to be part two I guess ( Read more... )

it's so strange to think I will never wake up at 5:15 (or 4:23) and go to the boathouse ever again. I don't know how I feel. Kind of sad, kind of ready to be done, a lot sad I guess. I feel really undefined. What will I talk about, what will I make corny puns and jokes about, who will I hang out with and how will I relate...what is my life without ( Read more... )

actually, no update because I am feeling so grouchy and ...actually not grouchy, just not social lately. which is good since I have my enormous be all end all paper due in a week, but I feel bad that I'm being a bad friend to people...
so, if that's you... sorry :( I miss you!

I am very grouchy today.