It's scary for me to know that I have let someone control my happiness.. Move on means next door for them while it means progress in life for me. Why can't I just have both..?..

I've just recently decided that I really can't trust anyone. Even the ones you expect not to bullshit you do. I wonder why the FUCK people say things they don't mean. Why? Can anyone fucking answer that? Are you too big of a pussy to come clean and tell me exactly what you want or don't want? I like being able. for the most part, to decide what I ( Read more... )

Make me into the one you want, into the one you need. You bend and ( Read more... )

Well. I've thought about things today. I really would like for James to get better and maybe even grow to love himself. If he feels that he can't do that with me around then so be it. I lost sight of his best interests and became more in tune with my own. I know that may mean the love we have now will/could be lost, but if in the long run it ( Read more... )

Do you ever wonder what you would say to people if you knew you were gonna die? I'd tell my family to forgive James. :). I love this boy more than anyone can love.. Period. Of course i'd tell them I love them too. Just a thought that I had to get out I guess. :)

That book has just recently opened my eyes to things. For those of you who haven’t read it, I will give a brief description. It isn’t hard to comprehend, so I won’t go too far into it. It is mainly about how controlled society is and how much it will escalate in the future. They have their own little world created by man and control them to the ( Read more... )

I hate feeling shitty and like things are falling apart. This empty feeling is just growing every time we get on bad terms. I wish it was alot easier to be happy with someone. I know it wasn't supposed to be just a smooth ride. I just get so stressed out and I feel like I don't have an outlet or anyone to talk to that will actually listen to me ( Read more... )

I got a job. I know I should've written about it a few days ago when I first got it, but oh well. I like it though. The only part that bothers me is standing in one place for so long. The people have been nice to me too. The only one i've actually had any problem with was Jessica. She isn't a good teacher. I learned more today from Amy than I did ( Read more... )

Distant memories are invading my mind ( Read more... )

Your Social Dysfunction:
Happy

You're a happy person - you have a good amount of self-esteem, and are socially healthy. While this isn't a social dysfunction per se, you're definitely not normal. Consider yourself lucky: you walk that fine line between 'normal' and being outright narcissistic. You're rare - which is something else to be happy ( Read more... )