.....ifi could sit and talk to anyone, (dead or alive).....i think it would be eric. i wonder so many things about him, not just about the stories i've heard, or the ones i know i haven't, and probably never will.....i do want to know about his life, and the experiences he's lived that no one else could tell me about, and 'the real story'..... ( Read more... )

.....when the strong person that i think i am, sometimes pretend to be, and so often am.........just goes to pieces, because i just feel like i'm at the bottom of a really heavy, messy pile. i hurt. i hurt so much right now, that i want to cry......well, in truth, i already am, but that's the way the saying goes, eh ( Read more... )

......well, casey's sick.......right while we were having the discussion about everyone else getting sick, or whatever....next thing i know......he's sick......and of course, as a boy, and as one not used to the daily plagues of living sick.......he is such a baby. he tends to get cranky whe he's sick, and he has certainly come down with a case ( Read more... )

.....well, i'm in anticipation, because i've got to meet up with someone in a couple hours...so i can't take anything for the pain right now, because i won't be able to be with it or alert enough to operate heavy machinery ( Read more... )

....hmmmm, well i am a little surprised that it's only noon thirty. there are still plenty of things on my list i'd intended to do today......but casey came home early today.....he's sleeping now, he's got some cold or something and he's zonked on meds. now if i can just get that oaf to quit drinking from the cartons.....we'll be in business. i ( Read more... )

.....but i must admit, i'm still kind of giddy and excited and relieved just knowing that i've returned to my lj ( Read more... )

i feel such a relief just from having posted in my lj........i want so much to just vent and type endlessly without thinking and just let the shit flow......but i haven't anything to say....

.....hello to all of my dear ones with whom i've not spoken in far far too long! and hello to my lj...my plain old lj....it's been too long ( Read more... )

wow.....i guess the days of the week really have become COMPLETELY irrelevant to me......it rarely matters to me or my situation WHAt day it is....but i frequently find myself surprised when i find out (daily) what day it is ( Read more... )

.....so, i was only kind of productive yesterday......i mean....i managed to cross shit off my list....but i can't seem to recall now what i did that was really great yesterday. this morning, i've already got four things crossed off my list, and i'm waiting to hear back from gene, and hopefully i can ge my hair cut.....i think i'm not ready for ( Read more... )