I understand that... however, at the end of times of great sorrow, it's still kind of nice (much later) to realize you've experienced that depth of feeling.
When my favorite aunt died (at 50, when we were planning on getting together a few short months later) I was devastated. I have never experienced a feeling of heartbreak like that before. In retrospect, it was an honor to her memory and her influence in my life that I was in so much pain, so in that respect I am glad I experienced it. I hope never to feel it again, but should it happen I will know what it feels like.
So it's much better to experience the highs & lows of existence than to live a life of bland middle-of-the-road boredom. The lows are worse, but the up moments more than make up for it.
Not at all weird. I feel Everything very intensely good and bad and 99 and 44/100ths percent of the time I like it that way. I've been on antidepressants off and on over the course of my life and have always ended back off of them. Yes, I was more "stable", but I was also less everything else. I'll take the darkness of the depths because the heights are so beautiful.
*hugs* Definitely! I'm soooo looking forward to it. I think we may be trying to make it up there the night before so we are settled in and relaxed when things get going. :)
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When my favorite aunt died (at 50, when we were planning on getting together a few short months later) I was devastated. I have never experienced a feeling of heartbreak like that before. In retrospect, it was an honor to her memory and her influence in my life that I was in so much pain, so in that respect I am glad I experienced it. I hope never to feel it again, but should it happen I will know what it feels like.
So it's much better to experience the highs & lows of existence than to live a life of bland middle-of-the-road boredom. The lows are worse, but the up moments more than make up for it.
Maybe I am weird.... ;)
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