I am miserable. I miss some part of me that has been gone for a long time.

I'm not even sure what is it that bothers me so. I guess it's the fact that no matter how hard I try I cannot please everybody. In my heart I believe that one day I will; in reality, I believe one day I will discover that I can't. There is a time in everyone's life that they get fed up with trying so hard you wear yourself out. My doctor's appt. ( Read more... )

I love my boyfriend!

where do i even begin ( Read more... )

get a fucking life, and stay out of mine.

How can you keep giving and giving, If you have nothing left? I want so badly for things to work out. I cant give you anymore of myself... i'm sorry for that, but i will not change myself for you. I just want to to care. I want you to get over all this bullshit and call me. I want you to miss me. I leave for california for 3 weeks and it's sad how ( Read more... )

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what's the point of even fucking living....

so he said to me tonight that I am difficult and that he can't seem to figure me out. sometimes I wonder if mark even had me figured out. I mean i dont even think i have me figured out just this yet. I know nathan's intentions are good, but i just dont know what to do with all of this. im scared. scared of what seems to happen to me over and over ( Read more... )