Wow, the journey has been more than abundant. I constantly remind myself where I am and how I got here, more so, that I have created this. Just wow. It's really amazing when you put your mind to something and actually see it manifest in front of your eyes. I am here. This is where I want to be, and then ok. Here we go! Such blessings, you are the ( Read more... )

*missing text* I have to stop myself from thinking about it, I've been doing better at distracting myself. Work kind of helps with that...unavoidably just because I'm there so often. But in the end, through all the struggles I endure @ work (which is so unexpected for xxi) I am pushed to exceed expectations and I know it will pay off. I just have ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking confused....

Seriously, I know the possibilities are endless so it's really pointless to ask: how many more times am I going to let deceptive, manipulative, shady ass motherfuckers into my life...but seriously, how many more of you fucks are gonna trick me into thinking you're good, genuine, respectful people. People who PREACH the word respect, but don't give ( Read more... )

The canvas, so blank. Staring back at me with little to no expression....I ask myself, 'what are you going to portray today? What color is going to collide with that emotion?' The truth, all colors every day. Different compositions and lighting everytime, but always raw emotion ( Read more... )

When will it next erupt ( Read more... )

Study into near-death experiences supports theory of a 'sixth sense ( Read more... )

I wish I knew the "master plan". Well, I guess I wish I knew a lot of things, things no one seems to know. People claim they "know" but, I used to "know" and yeah, not so much anymore. The world IS the way you perceive it, at any given time in one's life, whether you are correct or not...it's your dream of reality, and not necessarily reality ( Read more... )

It's kind of funny to go through past entries and see how things really have changed. To see not just how my surroundings have changed, but the inner workings of my soul have moved, shifted and have become something completely new. It weird how much influence Chris actually has over the whole thing...I never really believed before, and now everyday ( Read more... )

I'm starting not to feel bad about my lack of writing recently, or I guess not so recently anymore. I have a hard time making myself do something unless something ground breaking forces me to do so....and the things that tend to drive me internally are success, art, pain, and love. Although I'm practicing all but one of those, pain is almost an ( Read more... )