Am I gone? I do not know.... I seem to become something else more and more every day until I feel I have almost lost myself. And who will I be myself with? For the person I was, the person I still wish to be, does not fit in this new life with these people.

I do not know yet if I am gone

I do not know yet who is in my place.

I sit at the top of the house on a cold windy day.
I look out the window at the tops of the trees,
I see water on the ground and can hear windchimes sing.
From downstairs rises the sounds of a woman singing celtic songs,
or perhaps something else...
so faint there are no words, ony the sounds.
Like the calling of ghosts from the past.

Well.... I think this site is going to be shut down or permanantly archived. Too much of some things, and none of the others ( Read more... )

I'm going to Scotland!! I'm going to London!! I'm thrilled and have 99% no idea what the hell to do after Camden Market Stables (Goth Shopping!!!) and OK, the Tower of London (must give in to tourist stuff occasionally) and a cruise around Harrods just to see if it's all they say it is. But it's only a day in London. Then to Scotland for 9 more ( Read more... )

Greetings and blessings to all my loved ones! May the veil grow thin tonight and your ancestors whisper to you of truths and blessings and a new year filled with wonder and joys. May yours ears be open to the sounds they make, may your eyes see them anew, may your heart welcome the love they give you ( Read more... )

"Frodo failed, Bush has the ring"

Another post from a best friends e-mail. A mild mannered, somewhat twisted social worker whom I adore. With a 3 year old who is the most amiable, angelic kid around. Kind of spooky sometimes how happy she is...

Today's email from her...
( Well, it started out as a normal day. )

......is from my bestest pal in the world, who works the self-abusing job of Social Worker for Children's Services. I have odds on how long her brain holds up ( Read more... )