Reading back over everything seems bizarre and somehow hard to think how different things were :-( its amazing how much things change in the blink on an eye . . . these last couple of years have been a roller coaster ride, some of the best and some of the very worst things have happened, its crazy, some i wish i could change, some i cant do ( Read more... )

 im up yet again and its a sunday morning i should be asleep been lazy. I had a really bad dream and ive woke up feeling unsettled and i dont feel well and its horrible my nose is all runny and my eyes are all sore and my atsmah is playing up because im stressed ive got earache and my tongue bar is makin my tongue sore  becuse i used the biger bar ( Read more... )

It all started when i was been a little shit last year at school i had my reasons but its still no excuse to mess up school, all i could think about was tring to top myself or how i could drink my self into oblivion untill i couldnt feel anything or think about anything because at that time thats all i wanted to do The social worker obveously got ( Read more... )

Thomas is my little god son. He is the cutest little guy in the whole world and i miss him loads. Im worried that he wont remember me because im not there anymore. I saw him everyday of his life untill i left and now he wont even know my name :(  probably a good thing in the long run for him though 
:( x

Well since 2005 so many things have happend and so many things have changed. Its almost unreal looking back at my old entries. Things were actually bearable even though i didnt think so at the time compared to how they are and have been at present. I no longer live with any of my parents .... i cant believe i wrote that i got on with my step father ( Read more... )

she wont get to see this probs but i feel betta for writing it ( Read more... )

hey well theres not much to tell really i went to see ma mum .... cryed loads saw my sister cryed even more and i couldnt really say much for crying ... still cant.... feeling so crappy right now my eyes are well sore from all the crying but i cant stop and its making me feel very ill and drained im so confused i dont know who i want or wht i wanna ( Read more... )

hey well me and shortee are back togther we just went to the mc night but it wasntt really our scene so we left b 4 we even got in lol so now im freezin and just about getting warm tho, things are alot fucked up at the min im so scared about tommorow im going to see my mum after all this time and i dont know what to say or anything or i dont no ( Read more... )

me and joe broke up ages ago so yeah thats how long i havnt updated for .. it was awful and i cryed but were stil mates anyways c ya againxxxxx

hello there, its been ages since i updated here oopsy! soooo much has happend inbetween times well i think i mentioned that social services had got invovled and other people and it was all going well but things just werent changing so i asked if it would be best if i just went and mum statred going mad i mean psycho! crying and saying just take her ( Read more... )