It's crazy how life does a 180 when you least expect it. Everything is good. I'm not gonna dwell cause I'll jinx myself haha but damn life is good.

The first time I drove home from your house, it was around this time and I felt on top of the world. What possibly went wrong? My emotions caught up to me, I got to me. You got to me. Today I was the only car on my favorite road in south jersey. It's my favorite road particularly for that reason. I'm always the only one. I wanted to cry for you, ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if it's the full moon or the lack of sleep. Things feel upside down. Backwards, whatever. I can't seem to wrap my head around these mixed feelings. The only thing I can do is be still, calm & let everything be. I just can't shut my brain off. If I smoke one more blunt my heads going to explode. Things will get better once I start ( Read more... )

Since phil & I broke up I feel like a lost puppy. I know it's sicking to think for the past 8 or so months I didn't have to feel,think, or act for myself. I truly lost myself. I've been feeling like I think I know what I want then I bump into a wall everytime I turn around. So this is what I gotta do.. Stop thinking so much. I've been living it up ( Read more... )

I don't like the challenges being thrown my way right this minute. My car, my job, money and the people I thought we're secure with being in my world. I'm confused with how to detatch myself to certain things and focus on whats really importaint. I can't get side tracked anymore.

Fuck everyone.

I had one of the most infinite nights recently. Elena and I drove around south jersey fucked up. Singing at the top of our lungs. Top down. It was awesome. We had some great conversations ( Read more... )

I'm not going to lie, I'm becoming an addict. I haven't felt so comfortable with sex in forever.. not even with Phillip. This kid is amazing? or should i say man,he acts nothing like the last. The thing is.. I don't listen when he talks. I barely respond to his attempt to make conversation. I want to kiss him. I want him to fuck me. Is this bad? ( Read more... )

It's coming clear to me why I left this town in the first place. For the rest of the summer I have to patient and clear minded on why I'm here again. To finish what I left off. I have to make my amends,directly. I have to save money for my new start in september. I have to detach myself while I'm here so I can do things I can't do on my own, yet. ( Read more... )

Today is harder then most days have been. I miss him,more then I have in a while. I knew this day would come.. I just have to be strong and think about me. I'm also terribly sick which leaves me all types of vulnerable. I'm going to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel better.

Last night I was told,girls sleep with guys for all the wrong reasons. With out even knowing it, we think we'll be able to trap a man by sleeping with them. If you guys aren't on the same page,don't fuck. But casual sex is fine,what's so wrong with getting a certain comfort/satisfaction? as long as you guys are on the same page! and no emotions get ( Read more... )