Ok, first of all, allow me to explain something about my journal here. I use this as a means to vent about anything and everything in my life. The thoughts in my head are what comes out. It's not meant to offend or attack ANYONE! Let alone being attacked for what I write. If there is a problem that I have with something or someone, I will get ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very weak now. My strength and determination has officially left me. I feel burned and washed out. Rob quit DEP today; two days before they were going to terminate him. I'm not sure how I should feel about this. The emotions I can dechiper at this moment are guilt, worry, and pity (for him). As much as I want to hate him, I can't ( Read more... )

So a few days ago at work, I see a guy working over in the Tox lab doing electrical work that looks a lot like Robert Grey. Wasn't him, but ever since then I can't get him off my brain. And after comtemplating it for a while, I've realized that there is still a small piece of me that's still in love with him ( Read more... )

GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! I'm so PISSED! Jason and I got denied the duplex. The fucking woman didn't even have the guts to call me, she called Jason. She told him that we'd each, individually, have to make 3 times the rent a month. That's $1800! INDIVIDUALLY ( Read more... )

I saw you today for the first time in two weeks. You were sitting outside, smoking a cigarette when you'd said you'd quit. You were wearing a new shirt. And not the normal band t-shirts that you wore when I first met you,, but a nice dress shirt, blue and yellow. The kind I asked you to wear when we got involved. You turned around and saw me, I ( Read more... )

I went out tonight for the first time in a year to the Goth/Industrial Night at Jade. It was worse than I imagined. There were only 2 other people there other than me and my 4 friends. It was awful. And apparently, Chris Brantley quit the Crux Shadows and is now DJing at Jade......WTF? I spend my last 3 dollars to dance to one VnV song and get ( Read more... )

I recently posted a blog on myspace entitled "Rantings of an Abused Women". For all who have not read it yet, please do before preceeding past this point of the post ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since my last real update. Here's the fill in for all who care ( Read more... )

Ohhhhh.....I hate getting sick. I've become very careful over the past few years in preventing sickness. I wash my hands constantly, keep my hands away from my face and mouth, and disinfect everything. I ended up getting this from a friend's 7 year old son. YAY little kids and their grossness ( Read more... )

For weeks now a co-worker of mine has been telling me to sit down and write out the qualities that I want to have in the next man I date. She says to write them out, keep them somewhere safe and available, and stick to them. Well here it goes.....in order of most important ( Read more... )