Hello everyone! Not much going on here. Been depressed lately. Been being what I call 'bad'. Mostly just parying too much. Tryin to get a job, but I'm soo depressed.

Still processing Ellie's death. I'm in therapy, not just for that, but we've been covering it.

well everyone. I am sorry to say that my daughter, Elliana Marie was stillborn when I was 33 weeks pregnant. She was beautiful. Apperently she had stopped growing, and was so tiny. She weighed 1 lb 6 oz and was 13 inches long. She was born on April 5, 2011 ( Read more... )

hello all! not much to update. just soooo stressed. being off most of the meds im used to....oh man. it's tough right now. plus..lookin for a job and an apartment. even harder. trying to avoid the hospital. at alllll costs. been there way too many times this past year. no more of that!!! gotta get myself stronger and better for this baby ( Read more... )

wow helloooo everyone!!!! i havent been on in well, forever. i am now 15 weeks (16 2morro!) pregnant! i have a new bf, james. summing up life in the past few months...another hspitilaztion, moved in wit bf, living wit dad for now till i cn move in wit bf (hes 2 hrs from my dads). aaaand job hunting. cant chat long. so yep.

that's how im taking life. ugh. i just got discharged from the hospital again today. a different than any i've been to before. it was a little better. ugh. im starting a new partial program and mvoing in wit my sister. my bf and i jus broke up but were stayin friends. sooooo much stress!!! and juliett, but thats kinda a good stress i guess. she's ( Read more... )

Hello!! Finally, an update. I know, it's been awhile!! I have exciting news tho! I am the mommy to a new, 7 week old kitten (: Her name is Juliett Hope. Pics under the cut!

( Juliett )

well, last week at this time i was debating my sanity. now, i'm ready, willing, and trying my hardest to get myself better. that nurse in the hospital, Chris really touched me. I'm still in awe ( Read more... )

I learned that...I don't need other people to make me happy. yeah, I just kinda sorta lost a real good friend and I can't talk to her for 2 months...or ever..i rly don't know but we jus chatted briefly and that really kills me if I can't talk to her again...ever. But im stronger than that ( Read more... )

yeah, ik, another post today. but i need to, i need to rant to talk, to write. i need to spell out how i'm feeling or there won't be any pills left in the house ( Read more... )

i'm outraged atm ( Read more... )