So much time has been ticking away ( Read more... )

I used to think that everyone came in a tight little package
and I used to drink all the time,
until I found myself on the table,
and with five little smiles inside my head, five different reasons I'd want feel dead.
But she was the thing that you would have called heaven if she made you feel good.

When you're depressed ( Read more... )

The past four days I have been driving out to Alki beach to read and drink coffee in the morning. This has been very therapeutic. I feel like I am on vacation when ever I go out there and I have been getting a ton of reading done.

Now I need to get my bike fixed so I can bike out there and save on gas.

I had a nice morning today. I drove out to Alki and had coffee at the Starbucks there along the water. I sat on a large wooden table facing the Puget Sound. I drank my coffee and read my book ( Read more... )

I simply could not sleep last night. I would fall asleep for short amounts of time and then wake back up everytime with the same paralyzing feeling in my stomach. It's been awhile since I have felt this much anxiety. This anxiety about who I am; an existential crises. I am definitely in a state of feeling alienated from true authentic self in way ( Read more... )

iI used to think that I meant a lot to her, but lately it feels like an illusion. I'm not sure what I provide for anyone. Lately I just feel myself becoming a bad person.

I was watching a movie , "The Devil's Backbone" in the opening there is a question about what is a ghost. A ghost is something that seems real but isn't, a blurred photograph, an insect that is stuck. I feel like the cause of some of my anxiety is that I feel like I am not only in limbo but I feel like my life is a series of half-truths, unfinished ( Read more... )

Okay Lara, I will start posting on here. It might be fun ( Read more... )

Ipicked up my Focus yesterday. $275.00! Not covered under the extended warranty. Im not very happy since the ignition cylinder is not something that should normally lock up on you ( Read more... )