Having some trouble getting to sleep so here I am. God typing is so much easier than writing. I wish this were the other way around. I'd love to type out all my feelings on Suzy Shine then write what I typed in my journal. I think it would be therapeutic. I don't think moving to Ohio would be giving up on my dreams. I think getting out of WV period ( Read more... )

Getting back into serving has got me worn out. It could be the social distanced sections that require you to do a lot more walking combined with the fact that I haven't done this type of work in three months. Could be the fact that I picked up so much that I spread myself very thin working everyday. Oh well, it's money. And it is a good baptism by ( Read more... )

Having a decent day. been eating like a MF but who's counting. I was, but not today. Seriously need to remind myself to get off social media. It's a dumpster fire at the moment and extremely devising. I feel like so many people are calling out other people on how to act. On how to protest for George Floyd. On how NOT to protest for George Floyd. ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. I can NEVER sleep. This is literally becoming a character trait for me. I am experiencing depression. I have since Suzy Shine. I have come to terms with what happened but haven't fully talked about it with myself. I just want to get it right like the Rachel Berry original song. My mind just was RACING after telling Garcia I could do ( Read more... )

He was born in Logan, WV

Spent his childhood in Roanoke, Va and Sanford, NC

5 years a a master stylist

He done hair and makeup with a lot of pageants in Virginia and WV.

Proceeded in death Bob and Darlene Lonker (grandparents)

Carroll “Hardy”Deskins (grandfather).

Ones left to cherish his memory

Glenna Megan Lonker (mother)

Rick Lonker (father)

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You try to solve some of lifes problems and I feel like more just come up. I kind've hate serving again. I know I need to get over it and have mind of matter and remember the reason why I wanted the job in the first place. And remind myself that it is a good gig. And stay positive and happy because if I am the guests will be able to feel it. I ( Read more... )

I don't feel like doing shit today. It sucks that work and life can be so draining to the point where I get a day off to do things I am just not feeling it. I don't feel like painting my face. I don't feel like doing all the shit I have to do to get this look together. I am going to try though. It sucks that chelsea makes little quips about my ( Read more... )

Slept weird last night. I feel like I woke up a thousand times. Not wanting to go to work today but I will. I know it's all for better things, the big picture. I am just kinda over not getting paid what I deserve. That's why having a skill set with set payments would be nice. That's why I need to work on this resume for the CATF program. I really ( Read more... )

Just sitting here. A little late but I don't care. I have time to sleep in tomorrow. Had a decent day. Gotta take mom's reminder to be in the moment. Don't worry about the future or what I could be doing. Be in the moment of what I am doing. Today I steamed the pieces of wig I took apart from two wigs to add to an existing wig that I will style. ( Read more... )

Mom made blueberry muffins this morning. They were piping hot when I ate mine and chased them down with hot pumpkin coffee. I literally felt happier throughout the day because of this act of kindness. She got up early and made those I mean probably for herself but she also had me in mind and made them just in time for me. It's the little things ( Read more... )