Were you aware that your first name was his middle name the day you proclaimed yourself to be an ass just like him? For nearly three years we've juxtaposed. But the bizarre coincidences that I've come across (or rather, that sought me out) these past weeks are taking out all the fight in me. I've been dealing the best that I can. But now? I'd ( Read more... )

HelloICEMAN: she
HelloICEMAN: has never had to experience
HelloICEMAN: being lonely
HelloICEMAN: like us

Dead on.

My head is in a really good place right now. The same can be said for my heart ( Read more... )

I feel my heart sinking down to the very pit of my stomach. (I apologize for the horribly overused image. It's really the best I can do right now ( Read more... )

Today I woke up and decided that I would rather stay home and listen to The Blue Album than have to see you.

If there's one book that every person should read before they die, it's Jazz. Toni Morrison is genius.

Never again, she promised herself.
So she chose to live.

I am not her. Yes, she is amazing in every possible way. I get that you miss her, but please realize that I am not her. You and I both know what I am capable of and it doesn't even begin to compare to what she was able to bring. But please understand that I am trying my best. I know you expect a lot out of me, and I know I end up falling short. And ( Read more... )

I forgot all about the sense of liberation I get whenever I write in here. In light of recent events, I feel it necessary to turn to this. Funny how a journal can be more comforting than the actual company of people.

Comfort in solitude- I'm adjusting.

Here are the things I would like to say to you, but probably never will. Or at least for now ( Read more... )