dear god ( Read more... )

I pretty much hate college. Its highschool all over. except not fun. I'm taking three classes as opposed to 6. yeah. okay. and guess what? they're all on subjects that I'm not passionate about and that really do jack shit for preparing me for the career I want. I don't even know that I want the career i want. but watever. separate issue. In ( Read more... )

I wanna fight somebody. I wanna fight something. I've got nothing to push back against. nothing to fight. And as I've made quite a good living picking up and throwing down gauntlets I'm not sure what to do with myself. I need something to hate before all that destructive energy turns on itself ( Read more... )

thank god for risa. Thank you my anchor ( Read more... )

I've had a philisophical break through. I know why I'm hung up on you. All this time I thought it was missing you. But its so much more complicated than that. You have always meant so much to me and I've always wanted to mean just as much. When I was your girl I got the excuse to assume that and trust me, I haven't been that happy in a long. long. ( Read more... )

some of my favorite things about the UW ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of this shit!!! aaaargh. This is where I belong. Life on my own. I WILL adapt to being lonely. My life does not depend on having someone. I'll move on. I'll sing until I can't talk anymore. I walk until my legs are all numb. I'll live until I can't feel anything anymore. nothing.

it REALLY fuckin bugs me that I can't seem to get over him ( Read more... )

dane cook is right. there's a particular ring about the word. you've got the "ff" and the "uu" and the "ck!" and the whole thing bursts out triumphantly, letting the rest of the world know how pissed you are at SOMETHING at the very moment ( Read more... )

Its funny about rain.We live in Seattle so I think we're supposed to hate it. But not me. I think its cleansing. he wasn't good to me. I deserved and still deserve better. He'll always be a better brother than he will lover. I was sick of faking it. I love him dearly, and seeing him that upset really hurt me. But I'm healing now. Idon't like that I ( Read more... )