you know what? for once I'm going to be completely honest. This is a freaking journal for chrissake and I still pussyfoot around everything afraid that someone's going to read it, learn something and use the information against me. I'm secretive by nature. can't really help it. My secrets are my own. and well other peoples are too. that's just the ( Read more... )

I'm driving back in black ( Read more... )

isn't it funny how you can turn around and life just flipped 180? like you turn around and all of a sudden you're watching gray's anatomy ( Read more... )

I wish I could write poetry ( Read more... )

prom ( Read more... )

-stupid stupid people. Go away. now. I don't have the time or energy to deal with you. Don't call me. incessantly. Don't cling. you annoy me. FUCK OFF! in a nutshell. there it is. you go to close to fast and it's your down fall. I know you need me and all but I really really don't want to be neeed right here right now. So now I have to go find you ( Read more... )

I always thought I'd be really good at relationships. But now I have one (non-romantic) and I find I'm laughing at myself. No matter how hard I try to let things be I cant help but try to help and when they don't want help thats really hard. Because another thing I've always prided myself on is my tea and sympathy. I'm GOOD at making people feel ( Read more... )

my parents read my lj....

but they don't know that I know that they know.

damn.

it's quote "disturbing reading"

oi.

You are the most pathetic excuse for a human being I know. You’re a shell and you know it. You playact at life. You don’t really live. You lie to everyone you love. You don’t trust anyone. You bend over backwards to help everyone else because you’re so pathetic you want them to like you, even if it’s only because you do things for them. In fact, ( Read more... )

I've lost more than I ever thought I could but I've found more than I could've imagined. I've grown closer to others because we lost together, won together. I feel people's pain. sometimes more than they do. If I really care, something that hurts you hurts me just as bad and worse because I can't fix it for you. I have accute empathy disease ( Read more... )