So I have been having trouble writing this time around, I think the situation was due to me being timid. Lately, I have been using the term "situation" rather than "problems" because I am trying to be positive; positive in every manner of the word, just trying to be a positive being/spirit in the universe and just having a positive outlook on ( Read more... )

      A week ago today I spoke to someone, whom I hadn't heard from in a long time. Honestly I didn't think I would ever hear from that person again. The reason for such an event to occur was due to a question. A question regarding the curiosity of one's love. The question was asked by the other person, a question that rocked my world for a ( Read more... )

I can't recall the last time I wrote something on here. But I do know it has been awhile since I have written something. It is a little bizarre writing on here again, due to the fact that for more than a year I had been writing all my thoughts on paper, for writing on actual paper seems more concrete. But for whatever reason I decided to come back ( Read more... )

I wasn't sure that I would ever post anything in here again. First and foremost Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years was completely different than the rest. So much so that it didn't feel like the Holiday season, but it was due to all the events and struggles that I had experienced throughout the past year, prior to the holiday season. The people ( Read more... )

No matter what is happening right now I am still concerned and worried about everyone else around me more so than ever before. I am extremely nervous for what is supposed to happen and I know for a fact that is the biggest reason for me being worried and concerned about everyone who is involved in my life, including those who are not involved with ( Read more... )

I am extremely nervous about the next 2 days and about going on this trip. I am worried because I don’t what to expect, it’s the whole issue of not knowing what will occur that scares me. I am sure its natural; I will be going to a city that I know very well and one that I have been going since I was five. But this time it will be different and I ( Read more... )

The last couple of days have been the most intense, loneliest and frustrating/understanding ones that I have ever been through. Doing things by myself has not been one of my strongest features that I have, but unfortunately recently I had to resort to such a thing, and I hated/despised it made me realize everything that I had not paid attention to ( Read more... )

I have been wanting to post something on here for awhile but I have been so caught on other issues that pertained to me and my situation that I haven't had the strength and time to write something. The next couple of days are crucial to everything that I am going through. In some weird instance I consider it as if all were to be successful and ( Read more... )

I have been trying hard since this whole thing has happened to me, and each day that passes I feel like instead of making progress and moving forward to the finish line, it really seems like all I have been doing is just moving backwards. My feel like my star is fading, and I want to just throw in the towel. I am not worried about my future, I am ( Read more... )

The last two weeks have been extremely rough, and the big question is how much more will this continue. With everything going on I am doing this by myself and I hate it with a passion. People keep telling me I am not myself, and they are right, I am not myself and I haven't been since this whole thing started. I have lost my spunk, and I am in a ( Read more... )