well hello everybody. everyone that reads my journal still...if there is anyone out there. lol. i dont ever update. but anyways, alot has been going on. im never home to update anymore. but lets see... i leave for germany soon. im so excited for that!!! i leave december 13th at like noon, or somethign like that. and then i come back december 30th ( Read more... )

hey hey hey! whats goin on guys? sorry i dont really update anymore. i really dont have the time, and if i do, i forget to do it. other things on my mind =) but since im not doing anythign right now besides resting up from a rough weekend...i decided to update! so nothing new has really happened. but the quarter is over! thank god! i think it needs ( Read more... )

hey hey hey! whats goin on guys? sorry i dont really update anymore. i really dont have the time, and if i do, i forget to do it. other things on my mind =) but since im not doing anythign right now besides resting up from a rough weekend...i decided to update! so nothing new has really happened. but the quarter is over! thank god! i think it needs ( Read more... )

well hello hello ( Read more... )

so im definetly having a very emotional day. actually my life lately has been really emotional. i dont know why... i have not been happy. and not my true self. nothing seems to be going right. jeez...whatever!! so today i was walking down the hallway and just bursted into tears... what the heck is that all about. lol. i dont really know ( Read more... )

wow, so i just realized that i havent updated in like a week. and that is a really long for me, i usually try ti update every few days. but whatever man. im just sitting at my work in this really bad thunderstorm, and if you didnt know i absolutly HATE thunder storms. they scare the piss outta me. i honestly cannot handle it. so to drown the sound ( Read more... )

i need to get a few things straight...

matt did not cheat on me... and that has nothing to do with why we broke up. if he did... okay. but according to him, he did not. so who ever is spreading the shit saying that he did...shut up. i dont need to get phone calls from him, telling me to tell everyone to shut up. it is none of your buisness so stay ( Read more... )

i think i made the worst decision of my life. why do i do things without thinking all the way through? i just dont get myself sometimes.... i dont know if this was for the better or the worst. i just really wish nothing is true. AHHH! im so frusturated...confused...hurt...and just dis-combulated!! ahh...im so not myself anymore. i dont know what is ( Read more... )

......blah blah blah. im getting sick of writing in this thing. but i dont want to completely get rid of it yet. but it is almost time to. this thing gets really annoying...so i havent updated in quite a few days. nothing really new is going on. nothing but...me and matt arnt together anymore. long story. im not even going to get into. umm lets see ( Read more... )

firsts ( Read more... )