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make it work...or not
being here in a place that challenges me, brings out my passion and embraces strife with grace has really changed my opinion in things. i feel like all i want to do is just go home, pack my stuff and run away and start living my life. maybe at christmas or next summer i will. this feeling of being able to be me and shine at what i do is so ( Read more... ) -
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for some reason i cant get over the fact that i feel incredibly insecure and self-conscious around eric's sister meaghan. he kinda of asked her about it when i threatened to break up with him, but he never had an actual conversation with her about it. ive had people tell me to break up with him because he clearly doesn't care enough to fix this ( Read more... ) -
love of mine...
I spent the most amazing weekend ever with my wonderfully charming, incredibly sweet and loving man I've ever met. Sometimes with Eric its so hard not to let myself get completely wrapped up in him. its the scariest but best feeling in the world looking at him right before bed and curl up and know that the person next to me will not only be there ( Read more... ) -
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at first i didnt want to write this in here because i know eric reads it occasionally but then i thought that i've been keeping this journal since freshman year of high school and i can write what i want ( Read more... ) -
And finally see what it means to be living
Part of me feels guilty that I like the attention. I like feeling wanted but it's not the person. It's the emotion behind it. It's those words. I love my eric but just hearing those sweet and sometimes comforting words are calmimg. I hate it. I say no and that I dont want him but I continue talking to him as a friend. I like that I have someone who ( Read more... ) -
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Passion is, in my opinion, one of the most important qualities of a person. Why would you even bother enough to do something without having an overwhelming want to do it? I've started to realize in the past few months that although I have given up so much to just be able to get to the place I am today, it was because I cared enough about everything ( Read more... ) -
..how the thought of you does things to me...
so things are kinda ehh right now ( Read more... ) -
..your eyes are the size of the moon..
so i dont want to say that i feel like ive taken on too much with school but i think im def. at that fine line. the homework load alone is killing me. plus class time and prepping for class and driving to class and breaks in between class. argh. i like my classes but my brain feels like its on over-drive constantly. and then stephanie keeps ( Read more... ) -
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it was eric's birthday last week. i liked his actual birthday. i treated for dinner at the chop house in ann arbor and dinner was great and we got all fancied up. i felt like it was such a great date for us. i felt bad because i had a headache afterward but he was super sweet about it. then friday came.. i wish we could be together just us because ( Read more... ) -
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is it normal to be scared out of my mind? i dont like letting other peoples relationships effect mine but i feel like all of these couples who have been together for years are all randomly breaking up lately and its starting to make me weary of things. i should be able to set apart my feelings from others but i cant. i dont know how many more times ( Read more... )