and so i cut it but its still there. nothing came out. not even a release. everything hurts but not enough because when its enough you stop feeling it. atleast thats what im hoping.

i miss things that mattered. i miss crying because i was happy. i miss riding around with nothing to do. i miss hoping. i miss days without endings and people without places to be. i miss loving because you wanted to. i miss never knowing what will happen. i miss secrets. i miss all of the people that i shouldnt have to miss. i miss exploding. i ( Read more... )

smiling has never been this hard.

i've been reminesing again and I just had to remember how much I love Ben...this is some old school '04 Myspace I posted and he answered in parenthesis ( Read more... )

i feel like im going insane. i have no one to talk to ( Read more... )

i keep looking into the past and i cant even began to understand why. things were plainer then, maybe even less complicated but at the time i was wishing for something else something different. is that all there is, constant wishing, constant hoping? and as bad as i feel for doing it, i cant help but want to go back, back to when i wasnt ( Read more... )

'this lazy afternoon
will find me in my room
plucking petals one by one
oh my heart will come undone
wondering if my wishes will come true'

sometimes getting mad is the only thing left to do.

the sky rolls in to upset tommorrow.

romance: to invent or relate romances; indulge in fanciful or extravagant stories or daydreams.

yes I indulge. but not once on purpose.