eh, ho hum ( Read more... )

today was camerons b-day party, hes turned 1. Hes so cute, and looks exactly like my brother, i just wish he was here to see him...and his new baby. His b-day was may 1st, that was a little difficult for all of us...we got thru it tho, i really dont have anyone to talk to, so i'm just forced to do it alone, but i guess thats my life ( Read more... )

on a scale of 1 - 10...and 10 being the best, my day was a -50928302982302983 ( Read more... )

so I'm sitting here and its late/early, and I'm tired ( Read more... )

today/tonight is a bad night for me. all i keep thinking about is my brother, and why the bullet didnt miss. my dad fianly talked to the guy that was with him...i feel so bad for him, he says he has nighmares and cant sleep and crys everyday. he said he loved him, he was his buddy ya know, he depended on him. he said christopher was the ( Read more... )

so i go see my parents tonight, and my mom tells me Tug came by and told my dad he had a dream about Christopher. He said it was so real he had to ask his wife if they were actully home all night. He dreamed that he went to my parents house, and no one was home...so he wlaked in the back door and walked up to Christophers room. He said ( Read more... )

well, a lot has been going on in my life. some good and some bad...I'll go ahead and start with the good ( Read more... )

its all wrong.

bah, so today was long and rainy...sucks ( Read more... )

have u ever lost someone in death? and there was this moment of "my god, they are gone, for good....no more chats or hugs or HEY i havnt seen u in SOOO long, how the hell have u been???" just this moment of "its over" so to speak ( Read more... )