I hate myself, more than I ever let on. I'm burnt out at 22. I lived too fast and I've loved too much, and I'll die too young, but I chose this cup that I drank from, knew what I was getting into.

I'm ashamed of myself and the unspeakable sins I've committed

Do u ever feel completely helpless to the world around you? Like you can see yourself sinking but you just aren't doing anything to save yourself? I feel like that most days... I know it's happening. I know all the right answers. I know all the smart decisions. I can resist everything but temptation. Things that don't even make me happy are ( Read more... )

It takes more time than I've ever had ( Read more... )

I don't know how to best describe myself so I'll just give a few examples about me. I'm the kind of girl who assures her friends before they go out that she has her camera, but I NEVER take it out. I have no sympathy for my friends that date assholes, in my opinion you want it that way or you would leave him. Always leave before you are left, it ( Read more... )

I'm gonna be sick...
thanks.
Fuckin jerks.

It's starting to make an impact.
Where to go from here...

For the first time in a long time I feel like there is no one to talk to. All these things I have to say and no one to share them with. Opinions, theories, ideals, goals, past, present, future... so many topics just bouncing around in my head and I have no one to sit on the phone with. No one to lay next to and be so stupid with that it doesn't ( Read more... )

...I always end up the people I care about most...

more to come...

Sometimes you just have to step back and look at the situation ( Read more... )

Ugh. Content is not happy.

Just a statement.