You know how when things happen to you that should hurt your feelings, but you brush it off so that you try to let it bother you, and if you're lucky you forget. I used to be so good at that. Recently (and I really don't think its that time of the month or anything) I have noticed that my feelings are actually hurt. I'm hurt. But I've also decided ( Read more... )

It's 10pm on a Thursday in October, and I was thinking about how unsuccessful I have been with life in general. It almost brings me to tears the amount of stupidity I have reveled in these past October days. Good news is however....I think that with the close of this Mis-happen month, things are going to get better. They have to, because I can ( Read more... )

I can't trust anyone anymore.

I know a bold and quite blunt title. But there is no way around it, if we are going to approach it in an adult like manner. I thought that if I started up again with men, I would know that I wasn't gay....or bi....or I thought it would prove that I'm not straight. But it hasn't resolved any of those issues. And you can't tell merely by the type of ( Read more... )

I'm looking around my room, I am thinking about my life, and I know that there are so many things that I'm not doing right. I know that I could be doing better. But then I remember I'm only 22. I turn 23 in December, and I realize I still don't have to have it all right. It's like Avenue Q....just wait for that moment when your purpose and ( Read more... )

I am in love with Apple products. My life has changed considerably with the new computer installment that I made yesterday. I am now the proud owner of a brand spankin new aluminum 13" Macbook Pro. THe only bad part was transferring my docs and music and stuff from my other computer. There was a lot of stuff, so much in fact that I just left a ( Read more... )

School is back in session and already I feel like there is a huge weight on my shoulders. It's funny however, I don't feel like my instructors are asking a whole lot of me...it's me asking a lot. Personally I am kinda of a mess, but nothing I am really all that concerned about. I force myself to believe that anything happening around me isn't that ( Read more... )

Gawd, I am knee deep in the doldrums right now. I can't get my mind off how lonely I am these days. My room mate and best friend sleeps in the bed across the room, but lately its like I'm not there, so I try not to exist in whatever universe he is floating in-in that moment. I know his next great love is here, tangible and sweet, but I forgot how ( Read more... )

I have decided that ( Read more... )

Rhapsody in Blue is near 18 minutes long...and I have learned that it is one of the only peices where I enjoy every minute of every section. Each part is interesting to me. And if played well by the pianist, can be different and more enticing than the last time you heard it ( Read more... )