Well, I must say I couldn't of done more of a stupid thing but yea I guess i could. This weekend While doing some laundry in a rush it would appear I decided to wash my phone. ON a side note Cell phones can't survive a spin in the washer. Just means i might have to try and buy a iphone. Oh well it could be worse i could of lost some friends or ( Read more... )

Saturday is my brithday. I might be going to lansing to see my friend band play if say anyone in chicago that wants to meet me now would be a good time. if not i'm gonna be drinking so i should be in a good mood. oh i hope there is a bar there if not i'm gonna find a bar.

Sitting here talking to a friend about my life cause well he is my logical side i talk to when it comes to me cause well i can't trust myself. I have come to the conclusion that i am scared as hell of talking to women. I know it sounds stupid but when i am alone and talking to a women i tend to clam up and not talk ( Read more... )

I must say i have been having an all around interesting day. lots of sutff going thru my mind like one person really in a hat that i find cute and witty but this is another post really jusyt wanting to say KABOSH today.

Why is it that i fear so much? I had received a call Recently and I have been to worried of the unknown to return this call. I sit here and think and ponder what the hell is wrong with me. for the last few weeks i keep reflecting on my life and realize i am too worried to do pretty much everything. There was a time a very short time thought that ( Read more... )

So after a year or so I finally got my windshield fixed. I went up to a auto glass place today and sat around while I read prisoner of azkaban. I must say i have missed out because of my stubbornness to not read. they are turning out to be very good books. Yea I'm a dork what can i say. But I am happy to say that while this first step seems kinda ( Read more... )

I have finally came to the sad realization that I utterly hate myself now a days and with that i'm changing. NO more me anymore fuck this person. I can't see myself like this another year so see you all when i'm thinner and can actually impress a women with not just my wit.

after some though i have come to realize after 10 years of letting other decide things for me I own nothing. I don't own my own car dont' have my own place yet still i have no bills. Have i lived my life. I have desire to get these things but i don't want ot deal with what i have anymore and just do it but I lack the capital to just do it. I want ( Read more... )

So I figured out i need a new job. I know I know your saying why are you tell us well i'm not. I'm stating fact. by first break my line leader decided to go out and get blasted. yea I know i don't work a place where you couldn't work drugged up god no lok back it might of made the day not suck as much but still. I need a job where things are ( Read more... )

Maybe I have been going about this all wrong. Focus is something i have never really had. I always believed i had a form of ADD, but now i am unsure. Maybe it's the fact i have never really lived life. I get unfocused and seem to want to move on. Is this my lack of growth that i am easier to quiet something then to stick it out. I know i am ( Read more... )