today= woke up/got ready for school/sat on the couch with my mom and poured my heart, and a few tears, out to her/ picked trip up/ drove to school in complete silence(hes not talking to me) / stayed in school for like an hour/ left school ( Read more... )

me and trip broke up last night. im a little sad and confused but i know this is for the better. he was right about everything. the way i have become, everything. and i see it now. we have agree'd to be friends but i just dont want to push it too far. i am desperate to be his friend but i dont want to be so desperate to the point where i push him ( Read more... )

im lost.
im so scared of letting go of him
but its so hard to keep him.
i know he will probably be happier without me
but it breaks my heart.

i feel sick.

i bought a car today.

i always have to see the worst in people.
no matter what.

i just didnt feel like facing any one today
absolutely no one

so i told my mom i was sick so she would let me stay home
slept late
 sat on the couch and watched ER
took a shower
painted my nails
folded laundry

i needed the day off.. away from people..

how can we make it to forever together, if we cant even make it through a day without getting in a fight ( Read more... )

"I was hoping I could tell you this with two feet on the ground
But I don't think I can talk, because I'm not very stable right now "

i fear that i have lost the ability to feel anything anymore. and it scares me. beyond beleif.

i have honestly never felt more worthless & used in my life.

yeah so basically....
ugh.
yeah that pretty much sums it up.

school is alright, except Sarah is in 3 of my classes, plus homeroom, which fucking blows.

and i become invisivble again.
how funny that is.

<3