and i can just laugh it becomes clearer and more beautiful each and every time comfortably numb second solo the only thing that comes up to d4escribe is "he just rips" rips what i don't know he jsut does it it's what i feel but with the ability to tangibly express it same t hing with woodstock voodoo child they express what they feel and it's ( Read more... )

finally forced myself to read what she said about him i guess i know why took so long scared that he resembles me read what he said it was just because that's the way he was and that pretty much cements it every time i read her liking him it makes me want to just delete my journal because again if it hadn't have been for of troy yarn her or someone ( Read more... )

hmm well sitting here after a soul-cleansing load-blow i realize that things are i guess comfy i feel just clean like a cool wind is blowing through my entire body no tension and something from my inside is expanding outwards throughout my entire body leaving behind a trail of lightweightness so i guess i will talk about things realized something ( Read more... )

[edited in preface understand why i used this journal always to basically express things to a few certain people that i couldn't otherwise and since you felt it was impossible for us to ever exist together it occurred to me whether or not your thinking is actually right it's what you thought and i can't change that so there was nothing else for me ( Read more... )

there's nothing i can even do anymore i'm a prisoner to myself. the only things i feel like doing are things that are expressive and i only have two ways and can't create anymore. i read an article earlier and i now understnad how completely wrong i was. it was about the indigenous tribes in south america still struggling against the encroachment ( Read more... )

if that's the way you feel about it i guess i'm stunned but okay i feel that being a confidant is something just as natural bein ghter for the person you care about and what i see as having caused the conflict has always been when only one part predominates i consider that incomplete and the only way something can work with a natural person is if ( Read more... )

well maybe the way it feels for me is that i've always been in your position i've always felt like you did in the various afterwards i just never made it public but i need that just as much as you do and by that i mean someone being there for me no matter what you it was you had people who left you so you needed someone there to help you through me ( Read more... )

with revolutionary change in thoughts has to come revolutionary change in actions someting i didn't really get at the time praised because i thought it was good as a rule to realize something like that but driving around by myself realized it's the way it'll always be and i can't go on pretending otherwise because emotional side whatever isn't ( Read more... )

arr rumbled off to see dirty pretty things with nicko last neight decent cinema something i wouldn't be diametrically opposed to watching if say after this moment i could wipe my memory and watch it agen which is perhaps my way of determining whether or not a movie was "good" have a kind of prolbem with such movies though of course dealing with ( Read more... )

thinkign about my relations with the fair sex and i don't really think it's possible for me to be just friends with anyone if i liek someone it's for a reason emotions are there waiting to be expressed don't know how this fits in with all thre est of the nonsense i've been talking about but i don't see how someone could not want to have sex with ( Read more... )