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the universe is shaped exactly like the earth
i just read Saving Francesca for like... probably the fifth time, ever, but the second time this month. i can't explain how truly beautiful this book is: one of those rare gems in YA lit that make the entire genre worthwhile. it's supposed "chick lit" but it isn't at all, it's so much more than that because it's so accurate and poignant and real. ( Read more... ) -
i'm the only one that sticks around
i'm calm right now. it occurred to me, sitting in the hub and going through my dash, that i am content in this moment and in my life. i am fascinated by the cycles that have proven themselves so consistent in my life, because this junior spring just as last has the same cusp feeling as the last junior spring. right down to the prom dress shopping ( Read more... ) -
i wanted to tell you there's a really good reason
i'm not feeling particularly vocal, but i did miss so-lucky sunday. i don't know. maybe i've just been too prolific these past few months, but i just don't have anything to say right now. anyway.
1. new music, good TV.
2. things not weird with matt's apartment. i don't know how i feel about tyler, but i do know i like that i am OK to be over there.
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what i thought would destroy me
leaves me stronger in its wake.
i am in absolute tears about moving. i know i shouldn't be, i know i shouldn't care about a house, but i do because this is my home and i grew up here in so many ways and i just want to hold every memory in my heart forever. and i'm sitting here with a double gulp full of white wine, in my old spot on the tile in the ( Read more... ) -
we are crushed and created
this weekend has been so surreal, in part because it's blending into the vacation of this week. i stayed at matt's most of the time, though none of his roommates were there so it wasn't the usual experience. guys. . . i love dajac LOL. like really. also i decided i don't feel anything for matt, romantically, but we are intimate in so many ways and ( Read more... ) -
i've got a hunger
i think i should have been an english major to begin with. maybe education/english, but definitely english. i take pride more in saying that i do that than i ever did with psych/poli sci/socio. i think, for one, that while liberal artsy, it is at least specific. i have learned and thought more in two semesters of english than i ever did in two ( Read more... ) -
they say that home is where the heart is.
last night i got really sad. not even sad, maybe that isn't the word. but i was a bottle of wine in and missing everyone in my life and feeling every nuance of everything negative i've ever feared, experienced, or imagined. so i'm driving us home and crying at the wheel and we get in and i just go on the couch and lay down and cry, and i didn't ( Read more... ) -
you are my blood
in my head the words of others and my own mix in a scramble of beating phrases, because i read my own wiritng and then i read other people's and all of it jumbles into who i am and how i see the world. music. dance. writing. friends. laughter. tears. movies. diet coke. fashion. fat. skinny. all of these things are me. i can't separate anything out ( Read more... ) -
all i can do
bleh. now i am sad. i know it isn't like deep because i know i am lucky but i think i just am stressed about the woodlands in general now and also yes i like(d) tyler so this is not the nicest feeling i have ever encountered. it's good not to be desperate but still unfortunate to not be happy.
still, it is So Lucky Sunday. so this week:
DAJAC. top ( Read more... ) -
the mountainside
i am at the woodlands and there is nothing remotely romantic happening but i just wanted to say that i think i like it here because it is the closest i get these days to middle school sleepovers and that lazy saturday perfect feeling and i love love love that, because that is my context for life. whatever the week or weekend might throw at me it's ( Read more... )