so much lost
even more to gain
is one enough?

ive paid my dues
still paying interest, though.

numb lips, numb heart
the art of war is hardly art.
ive heard it said that all is fair.
my response: who fucking cares?

i'm drunk in cleveland, yay! gotta love being me.why do i do this to myself?! i know that if i go to bed right now, i'm gonna feel pukey, but i alrwady feel pukey, so what the hell? i think it's just because my dad in in the room.

disemboweled,
lying on the concrete floor,
i look around me.
bare walls,
bloody spoon.
reeling and writhing in pain,
i take comfort.
finally clean.
finally ok.

the religious right pisses me off so much. if you care at all about equality, please read this, paying special attention to the last paragaph:
Buster and Spongebob: Lovers?
now, im not saying alternative lifestyles are for everyoone, that's why they're called "alternative," but how seriously fucked up do you have to be to actually believe that ( Read more... )

made a mix last night that i like to call "do not mix with alchohol". and then proceeded to do so. needless to say, i didn't end up getting anything done. unless you count being a complete moron for a couple of hours. but turns out i'm good at that.

who fuckin cares anymore? i sure as hell don't.

it's been a week, now, since i've been out. here i thought i was gonna have machete in hand to clear the path, but instead i found a butter knife. your problems can never be solved. how naive of me to think otherwise. on the contrary, my stay in 8 west seems only to have shoved my nose in my weaknesses ( Read more... )

rediculous/stupid/random/funny things hanibal said tonight:

I'm gonna save one for later
(pause)
later to have sex with!

don't jump the gun on this one, betsy.

that's right, jude.

it's a nut's unkey.

and the crem de la crem:

this is sucks!

lemme tell ya, this kid gets RETARDED when he smokes.

as i ascend the elevator, my watch blinks "too late." damn, time to reset. i think about what i must look like to the security guard watching the moniter in the lobby; standing tall, eyes straight, feet together, but calm. im cool as a cucumber. i've done this before, it's old hat. when the door opens, i calmly place one foot outside the car, ( Read more... )