Rage

[capoof]

I've always had a lot of rage, buried deep down and stuffed into a dark vault with walls of steel thicker than Fort Knox. One of the first things my therapist had me work on, years ago, was getting in touch with that. I thought that I had... but the truth is that I've only grazed it now and then. When I get mad, I usually laugh to deflect the

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[vonvoncake]

It sounds like you were in a safe position to touch that rage. You were physically controlled. You were obviously in the right head space to go there. You were with people who would have supported you though whatever direction you chose. You had an open door to take if you needed it.

Sounds (and looked) like you had the best of all outcomes Saturday. I know that part of Hera you touched. I've touched it before, too. She helped me learn to endure when my mind replays some past events, when I can't stop the flood of memories. She makes me proud and strong and arrogant and stubborn. She give a whole new meaning to the phrase "fuck you". And I love Her for it.

[capoof]

Thank you, sweetheart. You get it, I know you do. Hera is proving to be quite an unexpected blessing. :-)

[capoof]

Yes, it was very safe, which is probably why I allowed myself to go there. The whole thing was serendipitous, an unexpected confluence of factors that added up to an amazing experience.

I had no idea when I took on this role that Hera would be such a gift. She's taking me places inside myself that I think I have needed to explore for a long time.

I knew you would understand what I'm talking about. :-)