fuck, that woman always has a way of ruining my mood.

I can't say I remember the last time I've even gone on this site to read a friend's entry. Maybe I was in Irvine. I can't say ( Read more... )

i wish the sun would stay like this. actually, i wish it would stay where it was maybe an hour ago. around that time, the condo is usually lit by the sun coming from the west window... there's only one west window. i was going to look up the direction through google when i realized that the sun sets from east to west. it's in the window. it's ( Read more... )

so... I'm not depending on that internship. i'm not sure i ever really was. i mean, i worked a relatively long time on it, and it would have been nice, but they haven't called so.... i'll deal. i guess i'm at that point where i just have to roll with it, with everything. instead of pushing against what i don't like ( Read more... )

i'm writing a song for my intern app due tomorrow. i'm terrified i can't/won't finish in time. it can only imply that i have no motivation of my own now the college is over. i don't think that's true. still, it feels like people are working so much harder than i am at things. this can't possibly be the case all the time ( Read more... )

I'm confused. I've been confused for forever.It's weird how I'm always whiny on here. Seriously, I'm never usually whiny on my moleskin journal. But then again, writing on paper is just better. You don't get those computer-cancer headaches. I've had a headache for days... since I've came back from home. Maybe I have some sort of virus. But I don't ( Read more... )

i freaked out again. i feel so dead and nonfunctional.

i prayed for a few days in a row two weeks ago. friday, i balanced my chakras and it felt oh so good. and then now i'm trying to meditate. i know this doesn't really work out logically, but i'm just trying to do what i can understand ( Read more... )

the last time i updated this was three weeks ago. i don't even remember. i'll have to check my last entry.... i don't remember it ( Read more... )

maybe this will be a full-entry, maybe not. why lie? i was leaning more towards the not because i have a presentation tomorrow by myself in french aussi qu'un examen final de l'union europeenne. je n'ai pas le desir a l'etudier. mais, il faut que je fasse quelque chose pour la presentation demain. i want to not pass the final for UE. i just don't ( Read more... )