I once thought I knew everything

[captainacid]

On July 10, 2005 at approximately 2:30 P.M. my boyfriend, the man I was supposed to marry and spend my life with, Lance Corporal Ryan Joseph Kovacicek was killed in combat fire in Iraq.

This will be my final entry.

Comments

[onhermind]

ariel i have just been crying hysterical for the past 20 minutes
i dont even know what to say, it is so impersonal online and you cant even see me and i cant even reach out to you

this is hitting me double time, because i have a brother who was in afghanistan for a year and is going back in about 6 months, and we have always talked about our boyfriends together and how in love we are, but how distance sucks (college for me, iraq for you)

i seriously cant stop crying for you
i dont even know how to write to you, it just seems to meaningless and artificial on the internet.
please call me 5512067917 if you ever want to talk because i just cant stop crying

[restar42]

i hope you realize that my admitting now that i am crying is not cliche, but reality.

quite frankly i'm at a loss for words, but please allow me to bumble my way through something.

i read this several hours ago and have been very lost and confused ever since; it's strange how a tragedy so unrelated to me has left me feeling hurt and deeply affected. it's just so shocking. it's never ever supposed to happed to the ones that you know, the ones that you know are loved. it should never happen to anybody.

ariel, please be strong. allow yourself to feel everything you are feeling, but strength is just a part of who i know you are and ultimately it will be what keeps you afloat and moving on. and ariel, he died knowing that you love him and you will always remember his love for you. nothing and nobody will ever take that away from you.

i hope that i hear from you soon in some way or another. i will be completely unsettled until i have some way of knowing that you are alright. all my thoughts are for you right now.

love

[mosparkle]

you know i know what this feels like. like ive said, u were there for me when christopher died. let me be there for you

[xxheyzxx]

Ariel, for about 8 years of your life you have been another sister to me, and that is how I think of you still. The pain I feel for you is that of a sister and friend who wants to find a way to make you feel better, despite the fact that it may not be possible. Just know that I'm here if you need me. I never knew him but he must have been a very special man since you are a very special girl. You know where to find me if you need me. 732-567-8630, my cell.

Haley