I feel like I'm becoming unglued. I'm falling apart, my whole body constantly suffers from a deep but global ache. I thought it was sadness or loneliness but I don't know anymore. I think it's both and maybe a whole bunch more repressed emotions, or stress, or things that I just am incapable of dealing with. Either was it feels terrible....always ( Read more... )

when i was in like 3rd grade or something i had a huge crush on this girl. That year for Christmas i got a science kit, and i made her little crystals with it. I had them in my pocket and was going to give them to her when i asked her to be my girlfriend. She said no, so i crushed them into tiny pieces and never told anyone.

i cant be sure, but i swear i saw you today. elston and kimball. its 1/2 a block from work, you probably didnt know that thought because you never visited me like you promised ( Read more... )

The cold January wind knocked against the windows, seeping in through old panes and cooling the otherwise cozy radiator heated home. Wylie Boyle sent his housekeeper on ahead to the post office that wintry Saturday morning in Paducah, Ky. A thick coat, wrapped around a smaller coat, wrapped around some sweaters, wrapped around an old man kept him ( Read more... )

i went to bed at 4 and woke up at 730
ugggghhh

I am really upset and in no way remotely qualified to sleep. Unfortunately I am completely exhausted. I just continue to blankly stare at the computer screen hoping that all these pinball like thoughts will stop bouncing around in my head and make their way onto the page.

All I want is to be happy with you, I wish you could just let that

When I get really stressed out or really worked up before I goto bed I have a hard time falling asleep and when I do, I tend to have these really awful nightmares. They move really fast and I wake up frequently and basically feel like I haven't slept for the entire night. I figured I would try writing in a journal to calm myself down, because its ( Read more... )

its not a big deal, its just me

What I Want to be When I Grow Up……

Tyler - Fire Truck Driver

Ethan - Police

Natalie - Pumpkin

Carlos - Police

Emily - Cinderella

Zoe - Teacher

Jazlyn - A Big Mommy

Logan - A Big Guy

D’Nelson - Cow Farmer

Erick - Myself

Charlie - Elephant

I went to a funeral this morning ( Read more... )