wow. I havent posted anything in a while. why would I? .. oh well. it all seems kind of pointless at the moment. I dont even have the motivation or right mind to put some clothes on, much less have some sort of nicely articulated point. first thing first: clothe thyself.

OK. im back to my normal self. bringing aunty gale to the e r was just the thing to put me in my place. No matter how big my trivial problems may seem to me, they really are nothing as long as I'm healthy.

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its just good ol' fashioned sexual tension. Makes sense. After that fantastically vivid dream last night I'm feeling more like me. I could still go for a non r e m fuckbuddy, but with my current social life i might have to wait. OK. not on the top of my list, but on the list nonetheless ( Read more... )

maybe I can find my way to the roof without milt. but i wont, because I told my aunt I wouldnt. and shes very particular, for lack of a better word. empty empty is right. even the word kind of loses meaning after you type it enough ( Read more... )

Redheads like me. why? dunno. Im really in a reading mood. i want to read murakami till my brain leaks out of my eye sockets and I start thinking that I can read skulls ( Read more... )

:) <------- me being peaceful. I'm pretty happy, and when Im not actively happy, I'm calm. Being in washington is like a big emotional sigh for me. you know the feeling you get after something that went wrong has been quickly and unexpectly fixed? Like missing a flight but having the nice woman at the ticket counter get you on another one (and in ( Read more... )

Im angry again. The deal is done. I worked it out all day, called a million people, whatever. long story short. I can't afford to go to western. I am UNWILLING to go to a fucking community college. I didnt work so hard in highschool and grad early to spend more time than necessary at a fucking community college ( Read more... )

The sun is up and so am I. Sleep helped a bit, and also knowing that I can call my school today. Calm, I enjoy it. I could take out other loans, it wont be expensive next year after I get residency. It might be improbable but it's not impossible. Won't give up just yet, though I will refrain from looking directly at my financial aid package for a ( Read more... )

I'm still angry. it seems to be happening more and more as of late. Im at conflict with myself, with my surroundings, with my options. every little thing ( Read more... )