Square one where are you?
I feel defeated and I haven't even made a valiant effort. What is left when you have nothing to offer? Is this as good as it gets for me?

I was at a crossroad and I took a big leap. I have no clue, still, if it was the right decision. My fear terrifies me, paralyzes me. I just stepped out on a 5 year relationship. And what ( Read more... )

Life is surreal. But life has meaning. I'll find it. I'll take it. I'll shape it. It will be mine.
This is the start of a new. How beautiful of an opportunity?

It's about that time again. Time for my brain to get hazy and time to work out the kinks. I need to listen to myself. I can't recall the last time I did that. And it makes me so sad. I wish I knew.

I can't help but think almost everyone around me is stupid.
Almost all the time.

I am a tumbleweed. Always passing. I'll never stay.

I'm going to hike the Appalachian Trail in March.

I couldn't be happier.

Freedom.

Also, Lil' John is cheap.
I served him and his crew the other night.
I got a $10 on a $95 tab. If you live in a tour bus and drink from a gold goblet with jewles in-crested, I think you can afford more than 10%

I feel refreshed. I'm seeing what I want and changing to become it. No longer influenced by everyone around me. I feel like I can finally make my own mind and decisions ( Read more... )

I am loved.

I am cared for.

I am lucky.

Today I finally went back to the doctor to have a CT scan. Waited in the lobby for over an hour and the test took all of 2 minutes. They said the results should be back in about 2 days. I hate waiting ( Read more... )

I really am lucky. To have someone that cares to listen to what I have to say and is always willing to do anything so that I'm happy. Even if it means hearing something painful. And still having the heart to try and fix it.

I really really want a standing hammock.