I feel like I am wasting my whole life just by being interested in the things I'm interested in, like dogs and music and making things.  If I were interested in money, or politics, or business administration, maybe I could actually be making progress or enjoying myself or feeling fulfilled in any small way.

I could be interested in sanitation, ( Read more... )

Work makes me angry.

Work at Michaels makes me angry because I CAN do it, as opposed to work I WANT to do, which I canNOT.

I can get through less than 30 penciled frames of animation before my hands are impossible to work with.  The pain makes me nauseous, or I would probably keep going.  But 30 frames?  And in pencil?  I'm not really sure how ( Read more... )

...but John Mayer has an absolutely amazing blog (of which I would be proud, but DAMMIT, why him?):

http://www.johnmayer.com/blog  (read "tanning professionally")

"Two years ago my grandfather was diagnosed with Carl Yastrzemski's disease and I was forced to give up sunbathing while I looked after him. It's a terrible illness, CY. Your face slowly ( Read more... )

ACT 1

Barstools and bottles. A man and woman sit on the barstools, next to each other but separated by about three feet.

LAUREN (playing a man): A man walks into a bar. His mom’s there, giving out free drinks. The man looks at her, and says,

ANDRE (playing a woman): “What is this, some kind of sick dream?”

LAUREN: And turns out, it was.
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Oh, I remember you, she said.  I remember you from high school.
She was doodling naked women on scrap paper while the teacher talked endlessly.  She didn't mind; it brought her heart rate down.  All day long she'd been racing around, trying to concentrate on anything.  Futile.

A piece of music caught me last night, Chopin Op 10, No 5, and as ( Read more... )

“Weimar is a bitch, a cunt, a snotrag. Fucking Weimar.” -King

“What did you have for your birthday?” King asked. His phone was new. The sound seemed clearer, even though it only cost him five dollars. He bought it just to talk to Julie in a new way. The old phone had been fuzzy; she complained about it. Maybe now they would talk more. Maybe she ( Read more... )

Andre gave me Linda Perhacs, who I didn't have the patience for at first, but now I do, and she's very cool. 

Gosh...my 10 list includes a real person for the first time in a long time.  Lucky for me I have an open relationship!  Heh, heh, heh...

Can you play the piano and put my hands on your hands?  Hearing piano on the radio makes me swoon.  If I miss something the most, it might be that I used to be able to play it so well that I actually enjoyed it.

I ( Read more... )

Remember THESE???  I found my old icons on my porty-hard drive and LOOK!  It's like being back in school!


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I don't know what to say...will I jinx it?  Will it matter ( Read more... )