im drunk. and bernard gave me 3 cds today and i didnt know what i did with them and cassey and i went to thre regis dance which was extremely gay tonight and i saw kerin and others and then we went to the party at pats house and i got drunk with louis and tried to corrupt people, lol. thats def my life dream. and when i shared by love of babys and ( Read more... )

for the past two monthes my life has been hell. 3 people really close to me are dying from cancer, my dad got fired, im loosing two of my close friends, and i dont get along with my parents. and when everything seems to be falling apart i thought that i would have one final thing to hold me up, more so than my best friend, my boyfriend. or rather ( Read more... )

i went with gen to get her under tongue pierced. she was so brave and didn't seem to care at all. it was over in like 2 minuets and it looks awsome. we had a really chill talk in the car on the way there too. that girl is awsome.
now i have mounds of homework to do which sucks because i def. can't focus to do it all. ahh i hate school.

for the past two months paula has been amazing. while everything seems to be in pieces and riped to shreds, everything she does makes me realize more and more why she is my best friend. shes the only person whose made these past two months feel like its not the end of the world. i love that girl sooo much.

you know those days that are just absolutely terrible and everything seems to be going wrong but barely anything actually is? well thats what my day was like. i was convinced that paula was mad at me for no reason when in fact she was but then she got over it and we pretended like we weren't fighting. everything anyone did or said seemed to annoy ( Read more... )

paula is leaving for italy in 19 days and i dont know what im going to do. im tryign to find a bag that is big enough for me to fit in. i don't know what im going ot do without her here. i dont know how i will survive. god i love that girl too much.

im such a terrible person. im such a bitch. i should be shot a million times over. im discusted with myself, absolutely discusted. i hate myself. i hate myself. i hate myself. i hate myself so much, more than anything i've ever hated, more than anyone i've ever hated. i wish i was somebody else. i just want to go back and erase everything and redo ( Read more... )

im at megan's right now, but i thought i would write two quotes that have sumed up the past few days ( Read more... )

i have kissed someone: (xed those that apply ( Read more... )

this break sucks. first i get the flu and cant leave my house for almost a week. then i go to the country and paula comes and that makes it better but then she leaves and i find out that ross cant come up. i havent even spoken to him at all and when i do im such a bitch its terrible. i cant teach skiing because i got the flu and missed the training ( Read more... )